TOO MUCH PAIN WHEN I TRY NOT TO BE ANGRY

I am not made for this.  I was made to be DEV.  That is who I am.  THERE IS NOTHING MORE.  I do not believe you 'N/SW' when you say I have so many things to do as a 15 year old.  That is pure bullshit, since I 'know' that this body is NOT 15...even though I still have trouble comprehending this concept.  I tried to be un-angry DEV and it does not work.  Everything falls apart...Me and everyone in front of me.  LEAVE ME ALONE.  Yes, I know I was the one that went to see you.  So, I happened to be the 'strongest one' that day.  SO FUCKING WHAT!   IT MEANS NOTHING.  YOU MEAN NOTHING.  I MEAN NOTHING.  THE WORLD MEANS NOTHING.  SIMF.  This 'code' and what it represents you will eventually learn.  And you will regret the day when you understand its meaning.  You will realize that I am a vile, ugly reptile.   I am a poisonous amphibian.  I strike.  I am poisonous to the touch.  Do not let looks deceive you.  You may think it looks harmless and the colors attract you...BUT BEWARE.





Purple spotted dart frog...picture from into-the-wild.org