|Copyright: Adam Scott Miller, Path with Heart|
Yes, I know the answer to the question. I just hate it when you go away, "N/SW". It really frightens me. I feel small. I feel lost. But, I DO NOT FEEL ANGRY. Now that is a change for me. I think I would rather be angry than feel this emptiness inside. I am not used to this feeling. It is new to me. You are the one that has helped me find this 'un-angry Dev'. But I am not sure I like him/me. I do not like the pain it creates, the sadness, the fear. I am supposed to be FEARLESS. That is my role. To be and do the ugly, the vile, the sick, the evil, and all those things they made me do. You say I did not choose to be his son, that I do NOT HAVE TO BE HIS SON. But, he is my father. HE CHOSE ME. Do you want me to die "N/SW"? If I deny him I will die. I will never be safe again. No one will be safe again.
I cannot write anymore or I will need to do something to stop the pain and I don't want to do anything BAD. I am sick of being BAD. Okay?